I am surrounded by fucking idiots.

dont need black cats or white lighters because ive got holidays and birthdays.
ive got heavy chest pains, tired eyes, fucked up hands, a cold body.

just burnt.
and
out.

"late at night living with myself im burning up all the time.
around the first of the month im breaking down all the time.
walking with my eyes to sky im outside in all the time.
at the end of each day im digging dirt all the time.

i was going on about town
walked into a puddle and was put out
i dont burn out like i did when i was twenty-two."

fuck art
lets dance


fuck dancing
lets fuck

dirty work.

i love putting my hands at the pit of
all of your dregs because it weighs upon your
spoiled little hands and it is
IT IS
IT IS
what makes me wet.

in sweat.

in anger i pour down into
drains
i spill
effort
in making things
easier
than watching your rotten fingers get spoiled.

dont degrade yourself the way that i do because you dont depend upon all the shit that i use to make my moods improve.

im so tired and all i want is to be taken care of for like 3 days straight. my back truly fucking hurts. the pain isnt leaving.

just wanna be comfortable.
and never alone.
and that 3 day thing.
with nothing to worry about the next day.

Friday night dinner and a movie with my love, Aaron. Couldn't be happier. I fucking swear <3

Doomriders - Black Thunder